May 12, 2023

“If it’s not a, ‘Hell, yes!’, it’s a ‘No’.”

I think it was Adam Grant who said that. Today, it resonates. I’m wavering on a decision I’ve been mulling over for the better part of a year. I’m trying to decide what I want to focus on over the next year in terms of my career development.

I want more out of my job. It’s no secret that teaching is a hard gig right now. It’s not clear to me whether it’s the system, the students, the school, or me that’s the problem. As with most things, it’s likely a combination of all that and more. So, what am I to do? Do I try to find a different school, approach my current position from a different perspective, or simply accept the situation and move forward.

I once told you about when my dad told me to be the donkey. I just don’t want to be the ass.

So, the decision continues to weigh on my shoulders, it’s weight increasing as deadlines approach. I’m quickly running out of time to act on any decision that I do make.

What I really want, what I keep writing about in my morning pages, is to focus on my small business and try to make something of it. I want to be able to make decisions that will enable me to be better at being a small business owner and operator. The impact of my 9-to-5 (8:30 – 2:45, really) seems, at once, overemphasized and inconsequential. The indecision feels even weightier.

It’s not quite a “Hell, yes!”, nor is it simply a, “No”. It’s, as I’m prone to saying, an “I don’t know”.


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