The problem with most of the lies that I tell myself is that I think most of them are, in fact, truths. What I believe to be true and what other people believe to be true can differ and that’s when things get a bit confusing.
My self-perception is put to the test often. Whether it’s about how I look or something I’ve done, what I see is often not what other people do. It’s happened before where, after some time away, a thing that I’ve made looks different to me. Usually, it’s better than I remember. I can’t see the faults as easily after I haven’t thought about them for a while.
When I start ruminating on an issue, things get worse over time. I get trapped in the boundaries of the reality that I’ve created. Despite knowing that I’m entirely responsible for my perception of the situation, I can’t look at it any differently. I dig my heels in.
The truth is that I lie to myself all of the time, I just don’t when or what about.