Aiming for the spare | trying to figure it out, always and again

It wouldn’t be so frustrating if I would just accept the futility of constantly trying to figure out what I want to do with my time and resources. The more direction I give myself, it seems, the harder it is for me to continue down a productive, gainful path. I end up in the gutter and not rolling down the lane, so to speak. I can’t give myself too much room, however, because I won’t know where to go. Those arrows on the lanes at the bowling alley are helpful.

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Purchasing an Automated Indoor Garden Reminded Me That We’re Still Able to Grow

For a couple of months now, I’ve been looking to buy myself something, just to spruce things up. I’ve looked at cameras – too expensive. Fitness equipment – waste of money. Air purifier – open the windows. Lego – sold out. Every idea I’ve had hasn’t been good enough. Until this morning, when I saw an automated indoor garden.

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Finding a Voice

Several years ago, when I had first moved to Toronto, I was going to a good number of job interviews. One of the most common pieces of feedback I got when I wasn’t successful in an interview or when I was being let go was that I was “too creative for the position.” At the time, and even now, it felt like a nice way to brush me off without having to provide too many details about why I wasn’t right for the position. As the years have passed, I think that the feedback might not have been too far off the mark.

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Coming to terms with comfort

I got a pair of sweatpants and a new sweatshirt today. I haven’t worn sweatpants in nearly a decade. These leave a little bit of my ankle showing, just to remind me that I’m not fully exposed.

My girlfriend has been on my case about wearing jeans when I should be more comfortable. She was right.